God, I hope that you're scared of the monster I could be that could tear out both your lungs because you don't deserve to breathe. Instead, I hope you're happy, though I pray you're losing sleep. Because that monster you became never got ahold of me. I remember, one night you were waiting for us on the front porch, eyes as wide as the moon. Desperate, like an animal, running back and forth between mine and my mother's rooms. "Yeah, right. Like I'm just gonna throw you my wallet. Though, I know what you're about to do. You're gonna walk out that door with something while we sleep". Where have you gone? Your wife's sleeping alone. I'm wondering,"What's it gonna be like if he comes home tonight"? 2 a.m. and you still haven't shown, so she folds down all the blinds and she turns off all of the lights. You were a husband, a father, a well dressed wolf on a Sunday night. You hid so well till we got in the car. Now, your once little girl is growing up without you in her life. Who the fuck do you think that you are? For seventeen hard years, I called you daddy. Something my Father only had one chance to be. I'll never love you again and I'll never be you. "No, I won't be like you." Because you didn't plant this seed.
released December 26, 2012
All music recorded, produced, written, and performed by Men and Mountains.
Additional vocals by Jesse Clark of Latin For Truth/When I'm Older
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